my aching nerves and muscles.

Had a personal training session to try and get in shape for my sisters wedding and for baby. I had beta #2 drawn on friday and wont get the results until mon when they call. I hate the wait. I hate the not knowing. beta#1 came back with 270 something so we need that number to double. Then March 11 in my sono at 930am.
I dont know if I can take another loss. The last miscarriage hurt so bad.

So far i have told hubby, Lorisa, Jessica, and April. The good friends that will be there should my journey end before oct.

we're expecting!!!

we are expecting baby #4....

However this being pregnancy #5 i am scared shitless that my baby wont make it.

Trying to but my faith in god and leave it in his hands but it is so hard.

I am Due approx on halloween!!!!

MY FAV HOLIDAY!!!!!!